back to school?

So earlier this week I began the seasonal freak-out session. This is the time of year where- by every good student goes back to school. I was a good student once, or atleast I thought I was; and I want to go back to school....atleast I think I do. I stayed up one night this week until 3AM looking at grad schools online and sending e-mails requesting information. The thought of filling out applications, writing essays, getting my recommendations straightened away, etc. gives me this tense feeling in my stomach and I'm pretty sure I would rather throw-up than go through the experience of graduate school pomp and circumstance again. I jumped into grad school the first time rather unprepared and unsure of myself. I thought that a year and a half to straighten myself out would be enough...but obviously it is not becuase I really don't feel that much more sure of myself. I need a sign, some motivation...something to help me feel like applying again would be a success and worth my while. More than that I need confirmation that going back to school is what God really wants for my life right now and that I'm not forcing something becuase I am stubborn and proud. I need some ice cream.